‘Cold blue’-A A +A
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Friday, October 11, 2013
UPON reaching the Emergency Room of Brokenshire Hospital where we brought our dear Lolo, I overheard a medical staff announce “cold blue!” It was a cue that immediately moved a number of staff to work on our Lolo who appeared already ashen white.
As the uniformed people milled around trying to do what they needed to resuscitate our Lolo back to life, a deep sadness washed over me. To my children, Lolo Pedring was a very loving Lolo and no other. While he basked at all the attention he got from his grandchildren, he showered them with so much love in return. The feeling was mutual for them. That is why, when my youngest daughter Dana who is also Lolo’s pet, learned about his passing and understood what it meant, she was devastated.
They say it is a rare blessing to be a witness to a loved one’s passing. Perhaps...
I have seen how my own biological father went ever so quietly, without any difficulty, it seemed. Now I have witnessed again the transition that my father-in-law went through as he breathed his last, seemingly just gliding off to a deep slumber.
It was then that I felt heaviness come upon me, weighing down my chest as if it was going to burst with too much pressure. I thought it would have been what he wanted, to be finally free from the human body that imprisons his free spirit... to be eased out from the limitations of the empty shell that his body had become.
Go forth Papa Pedring, out from the dark towards the brightest of light of God’s warm embrace...
Thank you for allowing us, your children and your countless apo to serve you and love you while we can.
Thank you for giving us the chance to learn how to give love freely without asking anything in return, to forgive without looking back at the pain, to be filled with gratitude for the smallest of kindness there was, and to be selfless and magnanimous in the face of grief.
Thank you Papa, for being there for us up to the very last breath that you had to take.
Know that we have loved you as you allowed us to take care of you during the most trying moments that you might have gone through, that you have struggled to stay with us a little longer...
Go now in peace...
Published in the Sun.Star Davao newspaper on October 12, 2013.