Friday, February 22, 2008 Pages: Why I'm thankful for failure By John Pages Match Point
(Conclusion)
YESTERDAY, when I wrote about my daydream-turned-nightmare called the Standard Chartered Hong Kong Marathon, I spoke about running comfortably until the 28th kilometers when cramps writhed my legs in pain, when I vomited and could barely stand up when I sat down, and when I trudged on with the help of Dr. Peter Mancao until unbearable leg injury forced me to stop at Km. 36.
What happened?
I started too fast. At the 21K mark, my watch read two hours, seven minutes. At 28K, it was 2:50. Now, that’s nowhere near the 42K world record mark of Haile Gebrselassie (2:04) but, considering that the up-and-down, tunnel-bridge-flyover-plenty route of Hong Kong was found in the first 25K—then it was too fast for me. Had I ran 10 minutes slower, it would have made all the difference. Said Dr. Yong Larrazabal: “The course was really difficult. I even experienced cramps which I did not in New York.”
I didn’t run hills. Here in Cebu, I almost never ran uphill/downhill. Once, when I climbed Ma. Luisa Estate Park for 20 kms., I limped for days with knee pain. And the worst part? The downhill. And in HK, we were going fast down.
I didn’t drink enough. Looking back, over the course of 25 kilometers, I drank less compared to what I drink here in 10 kms. (At each water station, I grabbed only a half-cup to drink.) Knowing the importance of hydration—and carrying two empty water bottles around my waist which I almost never got to use—why didn’t I drink more? It was cold and my body didn’t sweat as much. I wasn’t as thirsty. Still, internally, my body was dehydrating faster than I was replenishing it with liquids.
No walking breaks. In a marathon, unless your body is the mold of Paul Tergat, walking after every few kilometers (or during water stops) is recommended. I didn’t do this. At each water station, I stepped to the side, grabbed a cup, downed it, then zoomed away. Why? I was with Dr. Vic Verallo and Jesse Taborada—two long-time runners who’ve finished, between them, five marathons prior to Hong Kong—and they were quick-paced. And, to me that morning, the last thing I wanted to do was run alone. So I stayed with two veterans—and this neophyte suffered.
I wore shorts and didn’t use tights or thermal leggings. I expected cold weather and prepared my upper body with gloves, arm covers and a beanie on my head—but left my legs vulnerable. And when cramps struck and I stopped, the cold hardened my exposed legs.
In summary, the one strategy that I planned—to run the first half slow—I didn’t do. Good, painful lesson.
How do I feel today?
Good. Back to normal. But when I quit and boarded that bus, I could not believe it. With the six-month-long, five-times-weekly training I’ve put in (including several “long runs” at over 30 kms.), it never, ever occurred to me that I wouldn’t finish.
But, you know what, while I felt devastated inside that bus, in the hours and days that ensued, I felt rejuvenated. Recharged. And even more determined to hurdle this goal that Lance Armstrong once called “the most difficult thing I’ve ever done.”
I also realized that in sports, like life, losing is “part of the game.” And as I wrote in an e-mail message to Chris Aldeguer, who’s also training to finish his first 42K soon, “Chris, if one’s not willing to absorb these knockouts of life, then why compete in sports, right?”
I’ve learned the value of friendship. And the selfless act of Dr. Peter Mancao—passing me near the 30K mark, seeing me wretched in pain, almost like a crippled man; running to get me water, grabbing a sponge to massage my tortured legs—those were acts that I will never, ever forget.
What else have I learned?
That it’s good to be humbled. It’s good to taste defeat. It’s good to feel pain so that, when that moment finally arrives when one crosses that banner called the FINISH LINE, one can smile, maybe even cry, raise both arms and look up to the heavens and say, “YES, I DID IT... THANK YOU, LORD!”
