I HAVE been encountering disturbing thoughts and experiences lately. At first, I thought these were just products of my playful imagination. When one stays up very late and when that person is alone, his brain would eventually feed him up with creepy and disturbing thoughts.
This happens to me all the time. And I actually thought that these would just always be the same. Well, I was definitely wrong.
Last week, I came home from an event. I had fun but my body was just plain exhausted. So, I decided to sleep right away and just wake up at 3:00 am to make my assignment for Radio class.
I woke up earlier than what I expected. At 1:00 am, I was already doing my research paper. I finished it after two hours. At 3:00 am, I was ready to pounce once again on my comfortable and inviting bed.
The moment I closed my eyes, I had a dream. I saw myself riding on a tricycle. Nothing extraordinary was happening that time. It only changed when the driver started talking.
He was blurting out angry random words. But I knew these words weren’t meant for me. To make the situation worse, I heard other voices which spoke words I cannot recall. Then, a voice that sounded as if it came from the bottom of the earth whispered to my ear “Hindi ka na makakawala (You cannot escape).”
That’s it. Right at that moment, I knew I was having a nightmare. I opened my eyes but I had no control of my body. I could not move a single part. All I could do was pray. I spoke to God and wholeheartedly begged to be released from the horror of my nightmare.
And God granted my prayer.
I was so terrified. I breathed heavily when I woke up. The next thing I knew, I was actually comforting myself. I said that it would be impossible for two nightmares to occur at the same night.
Indeed, I was right. That night, I did not have two nightmares. Instead, I had five. All these I fought with the mightiest weapon one can grasp upon – a prayer to God.
Morning came and I was already beginning to forget the awful memories of the night. But when I logged in to my Facebook account, a message hit me. It was no ordinary message for it was a message from God.
Through the Facebook application called God wants you to know, I received a message that says: A prayer should not be a casual utterance of words but it is a heartfelt communication with God.
I then realized that it was true. Most of the times, we treat prayers as mere habitual utterance of praises and pleas to God. We treat it as plain words. But little did we know, a prayer is not a prayer unless it comes genuinely from the heart.
This time though, I’ve surely learned my lesson.Jona Rochelle S. Desierto