BAKIT? Bakit ko ginagawa ang lahat? Bakit ko gagawin?
These are some of the things every Juan would ask of me nowadays. They would wonder why I would go through all this. There is this thing called a bucket list.
It is a simple wish list. A list of things to do. Something some Juan would want to go through in Juan's lifetime. Is it something possible or impossible? Well that is the reason for such a list.
Mine is spending time with Mom and Dad. Period
This list will have to be with them both. Nothing else. Juan would ask why? Well that is just mine, this time. For most time, Juan has had his time. Time to soar, time to grow, time to sow, time to enjoy, time to excel, time to succeed, time to reflect, time to be at home with family, time to make a living, time to be what Juan would like to be.
I have definitely had my time. Europe for six months. Finding work in America. Teaching. Off-roading in Maui. Surfing in Hawaii. Skiing. Mountain climbing. Trying for public office. Controversies and Mistakes. Check.
This is all part of the list.
A home, a dream car, getting married to my high school classmate and crush, an heirloom timepiece, that collector shoe, my dream kitchen, the fastest camera, the latest iPhone, a 4X4 to take me anywhere, an NBA Playoff game live, acquiring a bank, friends in high places, going places, being a teacher, to become a councilor, the vice mayor, becoming the mayor, having children of my own, a husband, a Dad... Check.
It won't ever end.
To travel the world, a Porsche, a Cabinet official, an Ambassador to Singapore or South Korea, the President of UB, a golf handicap of eight, free from gout, to fix world problems, a restaurant of my own, more hair, Harvard School of Government, a Constitutional Convention Delegate, an Honorary Degree, being healthy, successful children, a Reinaldo lV and many more.
Some too have gone astray, a safari in South Africa, enjoying the beaches of Guam, watching a Formula One, a Red Hot Chili Pepper concert with my son. Back to School. Being the PBA Commissioner. This are just but some of those that have remained unchecked, for now. Until next.
Well every Juan can dream. I do too. I was just witness to a daughter who walked a red carpet with honors, another who artistically made beautiful works of art, a son who follows his passion for music, my Joy who now has her own school, a Father and a Mother who would want to tag along with me, or the other way around.
This is now my Bakit List. Spending time with them while they still can. While I can.
I would not want to regret anything later on. I would not want to tell myself that I should have done so. I don't want to say I wish I should have done so. I pray it was so. This are the things that will make me say, I told you so.
Being treated like royalty in Solo in Indonesia, a temple pilgrimage in Yangon in Myanmar are just but a few of the things that have been in that bucket list I will be marking with a check. I will soon be driving around Southern Italy upwards to France then Germany next. For two months. Wow. Yes.
Joy and I had a list. To take a car and drive down south from Sicily upwards and hopefully getting lost. Some wine stops along the way.
Museums, vineyards, small towns, driving on the other side of the road, finding a place to stay for the night, a top down to enjoy the wind and the sun, pizza and pasta by the roadside, that local marketplace, a flea market, a concert, that romantic date, time together...
All this was the plan, until Mom asked, "Can I join?", then Dad too.
So this is now the BAKIT LIST. It is this chance to be all together, to do all I mentioned. To be with them and Joy. Surely some arguments, some wrong choices of food, a wrong turn, being the driver the whole time, Joy by my side as co-driver and caregiver, I too will cook, be that luggage carrier, photographer etc.
We will be taking off tomorrow. Off the air other than on Facebook to share. Check out my posts for that check in the list that I have listed for Juan.
Bakit pa? E kasi.
This is now my bakit list. I have to. While we can. There will be more to this list. Let it be. It will never end, but let not it. There is nothing better than spending time with the Juan's I love.