WHEN you wake up, you have felt the heat of the sun. You saw your plants grow fast and that the morning welcomes you to move up and complete your tasks. But you find yourself too tired, your breathing is so slow, your mind cannot think and your heart is like loaded with so much emotions. Then, you realized that you are exhausted, you are too tired to fight for others battle and you feel like it is time for people to fight for you.
For the many years, people have loved and hated you for advocating for others rights. People hated you when you become the instrument to pronounce the truth. People loved you when they are lifted up even you were mocked and left behind. You were always at the back of others to the expense of drowning you deep down the lonely sea. You were the voices of the poor, oppressed and helpless. You were always happy to see others prosper.
But now you feel like not being affirmed. Yes, there are people who would wish to see you down. In fact, their prayers were to let you experience hell because they have misinterpreted your advocacies. They may believe you are a threat to them because they have not known the true you. They missed seeing your inner heart that belongs to the needy and lost. They are blinded by the wide-spreading gossip that you are using your strength in destroying good things when you have used your knowledge and skills for the benefit of others.
I may say you are not perfect – we are all not perfect. But your eyes now that reflects too much pain, I can feel. And maybe it crossed your mind to end fighting for others, oh please do not. Just take a pause and give more time for yourself to grow and fly in the world where your exceptional skills are needed. For so many years, you have turned down so many opportunities for others to live, and you have used your energy for others to grow.
I may be right but I guess it is not absolutely true that this time you need care from others because I believed people who truly loved you cared much about you and they are many. Your good attributes were appreciated and God can see. The truth is that for all the time you have watch for others safety, you have failed to watch over yourself.
I am sorry to say but you have been so selfless without knowing that you prioritize yourself less. You were too pre-occupied of so many battles that are not yours leading you to less focus on your brilliant goals. Remember that your energy alone is not enough to cater everybody’s need.
So, use your abundant skills that will give you joy. Go out and do not allow selfish people and fast moving time to halt your dreams. Pause for a while and live the life you deserve. I know you sometimes you feel like quitting because it is too wearing to fight for others remaining to be silent and I know that it is more exhausting to fight for others who you will lose in the midst of the battle. But then God has made you to become the defender of most – so please don’t stop fighting because to many you are an angel!
God is using you to take care of others but God will not be happy to see you not to take care of yourself. So, stand firm in the Lord. Stand firm and continue to let Him fight your and others battle. Do not ever try to fight alone. With this, you will be stronger than your sadness!