I HAVE been spending my life being in a house full of rules and regulations. Since the days of my childhood until now, I am still experiencing a life that is controlled by my parents.
My parents have been very strict to me to the point where all I could remember from my childhood is them spanking me with a belt and making me kneel on the floor. The word “punishment” is already engraved in my heart and this made me who I am today.
I became a teenager who limits herself from activities that a normal teenager would because I am afraid to be scolded. I became a teenager who would lie to my parents just to go to where I want or do what I want. I also became the teenager who obeys orders and sometimes disregard them.
I resented my parents for how they raised me. I resented them because I feel out of place from the society I am in. I resented them for feeling so trap and unloved.
But despite of the resentment I feel towards my parents, I saw how happy they were whenever I share my achievements. I could also feel that they actually trust me, they trust me because they had shown me what is right and what is wrong.
The laws of my parents and them being strict made me do things that are slightly unpleasant, but honestly speaking, I did not became someone who rebels and do things that are disappointing. Instead, I strived hard to show my parents that I am worthy of their trust.
I realize that there are rules implemented just to protect the people you care and the people you love the most. I realize that my parents are not just being strict, they are strict with a heart that has a purpose to protect. They want to protect me from the displeasing things in life and with that I still thank my parents for raising me with love and care. (Lariss Maxinne L. Lopez, Usep Intern)