MARIAH Carey said she’s no longer living in isolation after seeking treatment for bipolar disorder.
In a People magazine article due on newsstands Friday, the singer said she didn’t believe it when she was first diagnosed after she was hospitalized for a physical and mental breakdown in 2001.
“Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me,” the 48-year-old said. “It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment. I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love —writing songs and making music.”
Carey is in therapy and taking medication for bipolar II, which involves periods of depression and hypomania, which involves irritability.
Carey said she’s taking medication that’s not making her feel too tired or sluggish.
“For a long time I thought I had a severe sleep disorder,” Carey continued. “But it wasn’t normal insomnia and I wasn’t lying awake counting sheep. I was working and working and working …I was irritable and in constant fear of letting people down. It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania. Eventually I would just hit a wall. I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad—even guilty that I wasn’t doing what I needed to be doing for my career.”
Carey is now in a good place. She told People that she is back in the studio working on her next album.
“I’m just in a really good place right now, where I’m comfortable discussing my struggles with bipolar II disorder,” the mother of two said. “I’m hopeful we can get to a place where the stigma is lifted from people going through anything alone. It can be incredibly isolating. It does not have to define you and I refuse to allow it to define me or control me.” (AP with JGA)